A Nice Conversation In A Form Of A Poem

I sang a song, then a friend thought that was what my heart said,(actually that was exactly what my heart said)so he continued to respond and listen...

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

The moon's so bright, the night's so fine, keep ur heart,
here with mine...^_^

Can anyone see the sparrow, behind the shadow?
And if you only see the moon's glow, can you see her sorrow?

Though the love u live would perish in vain,
cant you hid the pain, within the rain?

maybe i am being naive~~~
as I always try to think positive,
that I need to believe,with this love i try to live.

try to live ur life as a lie...
one day u'll know once u cry
u're not a cradle of rye
which follows the wind blow
till the day u'll die...

i know that this is a lie,
but i wont say goodbye,
let the time goes by,
I'll let these feelings fly,

you always run, you always hide,
from all the pain u feel inside...
you always scream, you always cry,
why dont u just say goodbye?

its not that i refuse,or maybe I'm being confuse,
my mind said I've already lose,
but the denial in my heart still continues...

well, i have to go, my friend..
but someday then - i'm not sure when
when ur broken heart have mildly mend
u'll play this game all over again...
till then...just play it in the name of love......

Thank You

i will be a good friend...
a good listener, as Pisces were meant...

To this friend... thank you for being a good listener... Even you never ask, it seems you know... and make me think deeply...

Gwaenchanayo ^_^

Bulan, the day before yesterday, aku nekadkan juge pergi bilik Dida sebab tak nak ade rase tak puas ati lagi utk tau bende yang ade pd dye.. Positif atau Negatif, tu jek ade dalam kepale aku... Ganbate Moon!
Lame gak dalam bilik dida membuat mukaddimah... akhirnya tanye gak aku.. huhu.. tapi jawapan beliau adelah "Disconnected".... hwaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hati: Ape ni!!! Bukan jawapan yang Moon nak!
Aku: tu lah.. mcm sedih jek..
Akal: Dah sudah la tu... Dah selesaikan?...
Aku: Iye... selesai sudah...
Hati: Tapi, nak jawapan...
Aku : mcm ne akal?
Akal: Moon, ko dah tau jawapannye dari dulu kan?
Aku : I guess so...
Hati : Tapi aku...
Akal : Hati, tolonglah Moon...
Hati : Err... Ok...aku cube...
Akal : Macam ne Moon? Ok?
Moon : Gwaenchanayo ^_^

The Road Not Taken???!!!

semalam, first time aku borak dengan seorang yang aku seriously tak sangke akan borak dengan beliau... aku gelak when that person said that I am acting like a secondary school girl atas benda yang aku dah buat... sebab bile aku fikir balik, memang betul pun ape die cakap. sikit pun tak salah... selama ni aku cume fikirkan benda yang aku buat tu melanggar prinsip yang aku dah gariskan untuk diri aku sendiri... tak fikir pulak tahap kematangan aku yang dah jatuh merudum (sampai jadi tahap budak sekolah menengah sedangkan aku ni 23tahun!) bile fikir balik, mungkin aku tak perasan benda macam ni sebab aku sendiri pun tak ade joyful life when I was in a secondary school... so, mane la aku tau budak2 sekolah menengah akan buat kerja2 macam tu dulu... tapi tak pe lah.. aku takkan mengeluh pasal tu sekarang ni... sebab... at least ni yang buat aku jadi macam sekarang...

cume sejak semalam aku asyik mengeluh je... sebab kene fikirkan benda yang aku suke selama ni rupanya benda yang aku tak suke dai dulu... ah! salah langkah... jauh nak patah balik... tapi nampaknye kene patah balik... rase berat je hati ni nak balik ke simpang yang aku tinggalkan dulu... kononnye nak ambil the road not taken, but i guess I should take the usual road taken by other people. Aduhai hati... kenapa berat sangat ni? sepatutnya kau rasa senang sikit sebab tak payah lagi nak tempuh belukar berduri ni... cuma patah balik lalui jalan yang dah aku dah clearkan je...

"ye... tapi dah jauh dah kita jalan sampai ke sini, tak sia-sia ke nak patah balik?" kata hati...

"Tapi, nenek selalu cakap, ikut hati, mati..." kata aku...

"Tapi, kau tak nak guna instinct kau? Instinct tu dari aku, hati..." kata hati lagi

"Tapi akal aku cakap, cukup lah..." kata aku.

"Aku pun macam tak berapa mampu berfikir sekarang ni... Ikutkan aku patah balik je..." akalpulak tibe2 bersuara...

"sekarang fikir lah Moon, kau nak ikut kata siapa?" tanya hati...

"Hu~~~ aku tak tau...!!" aku separuh menjerit

then I sit on the road, still thinking to choose neither to continue my journey or to go back where i started. Aku mengeluh lagi... Huh~~~~~

Silly Me ^_^"

I keep wondering… What do I make blogs for? as journal or diary?

Isn’t a diary supposed to be private? So this might be a journal. Something that is similar to a diary, except this can be read by anyone else, not private anymore….

But another question appeared… does my journal interesting enough to make somebody else interested to read it? I guess they don’t even care… They will only read this when they feel like want to read… I think Nia was right… No one care… Not even myself… I just write when i feel wanted to write… I feel satisfied… I can edit my post if i feel it doesnt right. I can hide things that I dont want to tell. I can lie, or telling the truth here… But I am trying my best not t tell the lies, thus i just keep it silently… But i realize one thing, that there are things here that I wanted to keep as secrets, but I wish to tell somebody, and there are some that people already know! What a weired person am I. It seems I am not good at keeping my own secret ^_^”

What am I talking about right now? No ceherence at all… I dont know… It seems I am being silly right now… People might wasting their time reading this… =p
Cuma rasa tak senang hati je sekarang ni… rasa tak senang hati atas tindakan sendiri… silly me have done a silly thing... dah tak tau dah nak luah kat siape lagi perasaan mcm ni…. Nak tulis kat diary? dah berape banyak buku diary aku, tapi semua tak jadi… as the result, semua diary tu entah kemana… I am not good at writing in diaries kot… Habis kalau orang lain bace macam mane? Biarlah… kate journal… (walau tak macam journal)… Kalau orang faham… biarlah diorang faham… kalau tak… biarlah tak faham… aku nak jugak cakap ape yang aku nak cakap…. Pasal rasa ni, aku cuba nak diamkan saje… but when that feeling struck my heart, semua jadi kelam kabut…. Rasa nak sembunyi je terus dalam kotak keselamatan yang aku duduk skang ni. tak nak keluar dah… People seems to look at me with meaningful…looks…~~ even tak de orang yang cakap ape2 straight to my face, aku rase tak selesa… Ah… maybe they dont even care about what has happened, mungkin aku je yang rase tak selesa dengan ape yang aku dah buat, dan fikir macam2… hamek lah… tau buat, tau tanggung… tapi aku tak menyesal… rasa happy tu still ade sampai sekarang… takpe lah… itu sudah cukup sangat2 utk aku… i just need that little happiness, better than never kan? Aku dah dapat agak bende ni akan jadi sebelum buat keputusan dulu, and I’ve made my decision, I even done it! What is through is through… Hmmm~~~~~~~ (mengeluh panjang)…. Mungkin ade orang yang faham ape yang aku cuba sampaikan sekarang ni, mungkin ade yang tak faham… tak pe la… yang penting bile aku bace balik entri ni, aku faham ape yang aku rase mase skang ni…. Silly Me ^_^"

Desicion = Fears + Guts

Everyone has their own fears. Sometimes the fears already been known since long ago, and sometimes people tend to create the fear eventually.

Takut untuk membuat keputusan... sangat biasa muncul dalam hidup manusia. Adakah takut itu bertempat, atau tak bertempat. kerana takut, biasanya kita akan melakukan keputusan yang salah... tapi kadang-kadang kalau berani sangat pun tak boleh pakai...
dalam situasi aku, aku tak tau takut aku ni membantu atau tidak....

yang penting keputusan sudah dibuat dan dilaksanakan. kesan pun dah nampak... namun, kesan positif yang aku terima cukup untuk buatkan aku melupakan kesan negatif... let me live with the positive result because it is not worth it to think about the negative one... thanks my friends for the supports.

The Love Opposite Poem

This poem is one of my tasks in doing EDU 3206.
It is not as good as the others', but this is the best that I can do and very meaningful. This can be related to my 600 words short story "Bacause I am a girl" which i can only post it few weeks later...

The Love Opposite Poem

If everything was opposite,
My open eyes will be blind,
My ability to hear become deaf,
Curiosity become ignorance,
Then I wouldn’t fall in love with you.

If everything was opposite,
This woman will be a man,
Shy will be brave,
Ego will be honor,
And I would be able to express “I love you.”

If everything was opposite,
Far become near,
You will be here and I won’t be there,
So we can always be together.

Uhuk~~

Tak gune minah ni... lame da tak datang laman die sendiri... buat menyemak WWW je.. dah la memang semak...

huhu...

Itulah mukaddimah aku hari ini... Saje je nak quote balik ape yang mungkin yang dikatakan oleh Cik Bulan aku... huhu


Banyak yang aku nak cerita...tapi nanti2 lah... biar aku amek feel dulu.. lame dah tak blogging ni... Bukan senang nak berblog ni.. ia memerlukan effort yang sanagt luar biase sebenarnya... tapi for sure kalau aku letak effort macam mane pun, aku still takkan jadi sehebat kawan2 lain yang sangat seronok bila membaca blog mereka... sebab? ah... aku mana la pandai nak express my feeling in public mcm ni... huhu.. eh? perlu ke nak express feeling kat cni? well, in my own opinion lah, most people actually express their own feeling on blogs...

Feeling = thoughts, feeling, desire, enviousness, curiosity,...ape lagi? banyak la......