Silly Me ^_^"

I keep wondering… What do I make blogs for? as journal or diary?

Isn’t a diary supposed to be private? So this might be a journal. Something that is similar to a diary, except this can be read by anyone else, not private anymore….

But another question appeared… does my journal interesting enough to make somebody else interested to read it? I guess they don’t even care… They will only read this when they feel like want to read… I think Nia was right… No one care… Not even myself… I just write when i feel wanted to write… I feel satisfied… I can edit my post if i feel it doesnt right. I can hide things that I dont want to tell. I can lie, or telling the truth here… But I am trying my best not t tell the lies, thus i just keep it silently… But i realize one thing, that there are things here that I wanted to keep as secrets, but I wish to tell somebody, and there are some that people already know! What a weired person am I. It seems I am not good at keeping my own secret ^_^”

What am I talking about right now? No ceherence at all… I dont know… It seems I am being silly right now… People might wasting their time reading this… =p
Cuma rasa tak senang hati je sekarang ni… rasa tak senang hati atas tindakan sendiri… silly me have done a silly thing... dah tak tau dah nak luah kat siape lagi perasaan mcm ni…. Nak tulis kat diary? dah berape banyak buku diary aku, tapi semua tak jadi… as the result, semua diary tu entah kemana… I am not good at writing in diaries kot… Habis kalau orang lain bace macam mane? Biarlah… kate journal… (walau tak macam journal)… Kalau orang faham… biarlah diorang faham… kalau tak… biarlah tak faham… aku nak jugak cakap ape yang aku nak cakap…. Pasal rasa ni, aku cuba nak diamkan saje… but when that feeling struck my heart, semua jadi kelam kabut…. Rasa nak sembunyi je terus dalam kotak keselamatan yang aku duduk skang ni. tak nak keluar dah… People seems to look at me with meaningful…looks…~~ even tak de orang yang cakap ape2 straight to my face, aku rase tak selesa… Ah… maybe they dont even care about what has happened, mungkin aku je yang rase tak selesa dengan ape yang aku dah buat, dan fikir macam2… hamek lah… tau buat, tau tanggung… tapi aku tak menyesal… rasa happy tu still ade sampai sekarang… takpe lah… itu sudah cukup sangat2 utk aku… i just need that little happiness, better than never kan? Aku dah dapat agak bende ni akan jadi sebelum buat keputusan dulu, and I’ve made my decision, I even done it! What is through is through… Hmmm~~~~~~~ (mengeluh panjang)…. Mungkin ade orang yang faham ape yang aku cuba sampaikan sekarang ni, mungkin ade yang tak faham… tak pe la… yang penting bile aku bace balik entri ni, aku faham ape yang aku rase mase skang ni…. Silly Me ^_^"